Post Vajrayana in Kampuchea

Vajra Diaries Vol I, #1 11/23/22                                I fell back asleep and an exalted personality, with dark black hair, whose face was turned away, laid down next to me and we embraced. Filled with love and affection, pure like a guru or consort, he was also in great emotional need. Melding into me, it was a blissful, loving experience. That vision then became a dream that I was with a spiritually upgraded version of an ex-girlfriend. But I’m thinking now it was my wisdom consort, the one given to me in this last retreat, as she often assumes different appearances. Anyway, we were both very joyous walking through this extraordinary dreamscape and she pronounced that something ‘mysterious’ had just happened. This morning during Birwapa’s Yoga, I began to receiving vase consecrations from Akshobya and then, successively, the four other Wisdom Buddhas as one does practicing the Hevajra sadhana. I i...

5/1/24         ‘Mind placement and resultant expansion’ might be better terms than ‘concentration’ and ‘insight’ meditation. Or even using their venerable equivalents in Sanskrit and Tibetan, as they are now somewhat overworked—especially the word Vipassana. The latter, meaning ‘seeing more’ has ended up a catch-all term for perhaps seeing less since it’s been appropriated by mind scientists describing new techniques from the Buddhism without Beliefs movement.         Regrettably, the further ‘meditation’ in general is moved away from bodily experiences, the more likely it is to fall into extremes, like rationalism and its attendant nilhist or eternalist mood swings—depending upon whether one is enjoying samsara’s delusive experience or not—that is, having attraction or aversion, or any of the other Eight Worldly pitfalls.       Bare with me on this, but the body visualized as filled with feces, fetid blood and pus, is mor...

7/7/24  Fake or real? Seemingly an ultimate question testing one’s faith. Doubting, as in a ‘Doubting Thomas,’ appears upon first consideration the very enemy of faith. But not when given a broader perspective. In this case, by analyzing even cursorily, whether a thing is true or not—and more deeply, to examine whether it exists or not—reveals a higher truth. The Buddha, after all, pronounced things to be neither existent nor non-existent even before his famous ‘emptiness’ teachings on Vulture Peak. Consider the recent failed assassination attempt on the Republican presidential candidate. I consulted a film worker who’s specialty for many decades was helping to create just such scenes for film narratives, and he offered many reasons to support why the Trump assassination attempt could well have been faked—at least up to a certain point. No doubt the details covering such an alleged theatrical stunt for certain political gain will be promoted countless times on the internet. But thi...