Vajra Diaries, ‘Hollow Reeds’

This morning I had a rare Clear Light wake-up. That is, a pure awareness arising from an undisturbed, primordial consciousness, synced with the accumulation of daylight. Its single-pointedness is hard, clear, and solidly blissful. It could be that after last night’s meditation in which my mind went blank, my head bent, and over an hour passed in a seeming few minutes, that this was a post-meditation restoration of awareness within a mindful setting. After Birwapa’s yoga, much writing followed, as witnessed above, and in truth these two experiences of arising of Clear Light Primordial Wisdom and the Vajra activity of diary keeping are one—except when disturbed (not Akshobya) by ‘a little bit of thinking’ which is both the experience of samsara and the fear while dying. This kind of writing action comes not too much from one’s preferences and conventional self, but from one’s three sets of Dharma vows. At the time it seems as if someone else were present, composing effortlessly—well, almost—for the sake of promoting the welfare of others and oneself so as to purely further the Buddhist doctrine. If ever there were a concrete example, if it’s possible, for Nagarjuna’s description of beings as ‘anonymous vacuity,’ then it would be in this kind of functioning, where a hollow reed channeling of Emptiness crossbreeds into one’s experience.